DID THEY KNOW

A student just sent this to my email, it raises questions I myself have raised. And reminded me of my dear Rwandan friend, Claudine.

Did They Know



Did they know that there

actions would be studied

world round years later?



Were they aware that every

morning noon and night their

actions were to be taken notice

by the whole world?



That their actions would change world history?



How did they feel at that time?

How did their thoughts make them feel and what

motivated them more,

the feelings derived from being a mass killer

or what it felt like to continue?



The feelings the thoughts gave them

or the thoughts the feelings gave them?



Were they killing for the

cathartic release of insanity

or because their thoughts seemed so correct

their thoughts seemed so logical

that it felt good to kill?



What was it like to participate in the Rwandan genocide?

What was it like to look at the lists of names

and give death commands and

to receive death commands?



Was there ever a moment when

just the sound of the words in the air

seemed out of place during the 100 days?



What was the pathology;

a desire of unity;

seeking the truth;

or metaphysical emancipation?



They were trying to start something or they were trying to end it.



Did they know that they had

dove fully into insanity

and they could not get out; were

they just saving their own skin;

or did they love it and were

consumed by the anger?



We need to consider this to prevent it from happening again.


Can you hear me now?

Amazing talent!

A little wisdom

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate; our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Nelson Mandela, 1994

My first blog...

I started this blog in 2007 as part of a Management of Information Technology course at the School for International Training. I have deleted most of my original posts about the course, but wanted to keep this first post in the archives. The only thing I am currently adding to the list is being a yoga teacher, all the rest still apply. And hey, I am even doing some of them now.

So it only took me a few days after class to get here! But finally here I am...I have 4 email accounts to check on a daily basis, so I have to add this to the list! I should probably make this first, as it is required. Anyway, I believe I am supposed to bare my soul about my deepest wishes for my professional career. I have so many things that I want to do, I hope that I can fulfill most of my dreams within a life time. I think it is totally possible! Some things I have already checked off the list. I am just going to list them off in no particular order, just keep in mind the list could change on a daily basis, adding things mostly, sometimes deleting. Here goes:

-Change the world! (Or atleast some part of it, affect large scale change.) Haha, so idealistic!
-Be a part of the field of social responsibility!
-Be a manager, executive of a non-profit or socially responsible business.
-Start an online fair trade gallery of international art.
-Open a physical space to continue this work, along with a fair trade, organic, local cafe.
-Be someone that advocates for policy change, through a business or organization.
-Create public-private partnerships.
-Be involved with youth, high school and college level, in some way. Inspire poor rural students to pave the way for themselves...like I did! Let them know that although it is hard work, you can make it somewhere bigger and support yourself while doing it.
-Master's of Fine Art.
-Doctorate, maybe in Applied Anthropology...
-Teach college courses.
-Write a book...I have thought about a family memoir of the struggles that my grandmother, mother, aunt's, etc. encountered, something completely different!
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-After I do all of these things, and save lots of money I want to travel around and volunteer and be philanthropic...maybe the Peace Corp, when I am 50!

That is all for now in the professional sphere! Next will be my specific goals for this class...shorter list, no less interesting.