A student just sent this to my email, it raises questions I myself have raised. And reminded me of my dear Rwandan friend, Claudine.
Did They Know
Did they know that there
actions would be studied
world round years later?
Were they aware that every
morning noon and night their
actions were to be taken notice
by the whole world?
That their actions would change world history?
How did they feel at that time?
How did their thoughts make them feel and what
motivated them more,
the feelings derived from being a mass killer
or what it felt like to continue?
The feelings the thoughts gave them
or the thoughts the feelings gave them?
Were they killing for the
cathartic release of insanity
or because their thoughts seemed so correct
their thoughts seemed so logical
that it felt good to kill?
What was it like to participate in the Rwandan genocide?
What was it like to look at the lists of names
and give death commands and
to receive death commands?
Was there ever a moment when
just the sound of the words in the air
seemed out of place during the 100 days?
What was the pathology;
a desire of unity;
seeking the truth;
or metaphysical emancipation?
They were trying to start something or they were trying to end it.
Did they know that they had
dove fully into insanity
and they could not get out; were
they just saving their own skin;
or did they love it and were
consumed by the anger?
We need to consider this to prevent it from happening again.
Can you hear me now?
